Just finished publishing the prequel (Fairy Wars: The First Battles)on Amazon and all other digital channels, as well as in print on Amazon. Below is a teaser for the book that I hope will get you reading it.
Prologue
Present Day: After I step on the royal fairy and Fairyland and all its creatures are revealed to me, I return to my cabin from a camping trip in the Mansentia forest. I lean my fishing pole against a wall and drop my tackle box on the kitchen table next to a spiral-bound notebook I don’t recognize. It’s titled Magic is all around Us by Calen Bartholomew Ambrose in my handwriting. As I flip through it, some parts are labeled “My Private Notes,” and other parts are headed “Chapman’s Journal.” When did I write all this?
To say I’m shocked at its contents is an understatement. I don’t recall some of what it says took place, and I’m hazy as to where the journal went after I finished it. I do remember having therapy sessions with Dr. Chapman, and I do remember doing some writing for her, but much of the rest is fuzzy. I think the doctor returned my journal to me when I finished therapy, but I’m not sure.
Knowing what I do
now, however, I believe its contents are all true. I hope whoever reads what
follows will better understand my childhood and my destiny, a destiny I never
asked for, but one which has changed my life forever.
Chapter 1
My Private Notes. After Session Two with Dr. Chapman.
If anyone would’ve told me that, at nearly sixteen years old, I’d be seeing a shrink, I’d have told them they were crazy.
My shrink’s name is Dr. Jane Chapman, and she thinks I’ve blurred fantasy and reality for a long time. The doc thinks I invented Mom’s notes about the strange things she witnessed. My sister Cassie, who’s three years older, agrees. “I think you made up those notes, to get attention.”
But I can still feel the rough papers in my hands and the indent of her neatly written words as clearly as the pen I’m holding.
Problem is, I’m the only one who actually saw those notes. And Mom can’t back me up.
Cassie was in the basement with me when the weirdness started, so I ask her to tell the doctor what she saw.
“Calen, I can’t help you.” Cassie shakes her head. “I told her you exaggerated the whole thing. It was a freaky accident, but certainly not supernatural.”
“What?! Why are you lying?” I ball up my fists.
“Listen. You’re never going to convince that woman of what you saw and –.”
“But … but you were at the hospital with me. That part was real.”
“I don’t think your life was ever in any real danger.” She juts out her chin.
“I was attacked in my bed! Don’t you remember?”
“No.” She shrugs. “I don’t remember an attack, and that’s the truth.”
“Great! And the shrink doesn’t believe I was even in the hospital. They have no record of my being there or of a Dr. Gray. My nurse has disappeared and the rest of the staff doesn’t remember me. You’re the only one who knows I was there.”
“Look. I never wanted to go to therapy to start with. If we tell the shrink what she wants to hear, we can fulfill the state’s requirement to get treatment, even though it seems a waste of time.”
“So you won’t back me up?”
She shakes her head.
“That’s just great!” I groan. “She’s going to think I’m crazy. Won’t she put me in a home for whackos or something?”
“Not if you admit you have an overactive imagination. She’ll just say you’ve been through a major trauma, and your mind has altered your memories to help you cope.”
I chew on this for a while and decide she’s right.
The doctor has asked me to write down everything I remember because people with PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) tend to “repress disturbing events.” Having a written record is supposed to help me recognize what’s real life and what’s fantasy.
To quote her, “Recalling what really happened is the only way to stop your nightmares and panic attacks. Disturbing experiences are like festering wounds. They won’t heal until they’re opened and dealt with.”
When the doc is done reading my journal, I think I’ll tell her I invented the whole thing, even though Mom and Dad taught us never to lie. Hopefully she’ll believe I’m well, and I won’t have to go anymore. And the state will let Cassie and me alone to live out our lives.
I try to ignore the voice in my head. “But that’s still a lie, Calen.”
The doctor says the internal voice I hear from time to time isn’t real either. When I looked up “hearing voices,” I learned it’s a sign of schizophrenia. The voices a schizophrenic hears, however, are loud and commanding. The voice I hear is soft and suggestive, not demanding.
Here
you go, Dr. Chapman:
Dr. Chapman’s Journal. June 6, 1991. (My 13th year)
The craziness all started in our dingy, cold basement. Even with the lights on, it’s a creepy place. But at the time, I was glad to escape the summer heat, even if the downstairs storage area smelled musty, like old books.
I remember how, in spite of Mom’s offer to pay us, I wanted to read, work on the radio I was building or climb a tree, anything but clean out our basement.
But we’re moving soon. Dad just got a job teaching at a college in Harrisburg. And Mom says we need to get rid of all the stuff we don’t use.
I should be excited, right? A new school, a new city, a new house. But I don’t want to move and get a sick stomach every time I think about it.
This old house is where I’ve lived my whole life, where my sister and I played hide and seek, where we had all our parties, where my best friend lives down the block. It’s fearsome to think I’ll have to make new friends, leave old friends behind and lose everything familiar.
“Calen.” My skinny sister points to a big cardboard box. “You take that one. I’ll take this one.” She opens another box, one marked in red with “CJA” (for Cassie Joyce Ambrose) “School Stuff.” She digs into the box.
“Why are you so bossy?” I make a face at her.
“’Cuz I’m older and wiser.” She sticks out her tongue.
“Well, you got the older part right.”
Not wanting to be bossed around, I stomp over to the stack of boxes Mom said she wanted to sort through. I grab one labeled “CBA—Baby Stuff.” That’s me, Calen (with a long A) Bartholomew Ambrose. I set it on the ratty old couch that’s pushed up against the concrete wall.
One side has caved in and the top is bowed, like something heavy was piled on it. The box is sealed with slightly yellowed tape that’s curling at the edges. I pull on the tape and cry, “Yow!”
“You okay?” Cassie doesn’t look up from the box she’s rifling through.
“Yeah, paper cut.” The wound bleeds, and I suck on my finger. The taste of iron fills my mouth. Yuk.
I rip off the tape with my other hand and flip open the top. Stale air hits my nose.
The first thing inside the box is a book with a puffy cover. Baby’s First Book. A faded-blue baby shoe and Winnie the Pooh decorate the front. Beneath the book are tiny clothes, stuffed animals and baby toys.
Wonder why she kept all this stuff. I’m not a baby anymore.
I hold up the book, smearing it with my blood. “Did you see this?” I ask Cassie.
She smirks. “I’ve got one too. I think it’s so she can embarrass us when we have kids.”
“Really? Gross.” I’m about to toss the old thing into the “discard” pile, which is much bigger than the “keep” and “donate” piles, when my small internal voice says, “Look again.”
Sheets of paper in my mom’s handwriting hang from the book’s middle. I pull them out.
Tossing the baby book back into the box, I plop on the couch to check out the loose pages. The first one is dated when I was eleven.
April, 1989. “I think something weird is going on,” my mom’s notes read. “Calen has gotten into tight situations before, but I thought he was just the kind of boy whose guardian angel works overtime. But today was different. Today he very nearly died.”
Huh? I ask myself. When was that?
I take deep breaths, feeling like my heart is too big for my chest. I glance at Cassie. She’s studying a piece of paper in her hands.
I steady the pages and read on.
“I can’t believe what I saw and still wonder if I hallucinated. Perhaps by recording all the strange things that have happened to him in his short life, I’ll make some sense of it.”
Another date follows.
“Find something interesting to read?” Cassie asks.
“Just some old notes.”
“Let me see.” Cassie reaches for the pages.
No way is she going to find out that Mom thinks I’m weird. I’d never hear the end of it.
“No!’ I yell and hide the pages behind my back.
Cassie jumps. “Okay, okay, chill out.”
My heart thumps, and my palms sweat. But I can’t let her see how freaked out I am. “It’s just baby stuff.” I try to sound calm.
“Then get busy! Remember, we don’t get paid ‘til we finish the job.” She throws a stick-figured drawing from her box on top of our ever-growing discard pile. I want to make fun of her silly art, but I’m too upset.
“Yeah, yeah.” Folding the notes, I cram them into the back pocket of my jeans. Even though I really want to learn more about my weird life, I need to think about what I’ve just read and study the rest by myself.